Anti Music Music Blog
Music is bad for you, maybe, it is for me and that's what this post is about. How the owner of a very active music blog went to a music avoider.
No, I don't hate music now, in fact I love music which is exactly the problem. Music is pure pattern recognition to me, pure "dopamine" (I'm using dopamine in the colloquial self-help context where it means "motivation chemical" I'm sure that's inaccurate scientifically.) And since it's pure dopamine it kills my motivation for anything else, all I want is to scroll through more music. Always looking of that new ZUTOMAYO or Inabakumori, another hit of heroin.
Alright maybe heroin is a bit much but it sure does feel addictive to me, hard to stop, hard to close that tab with those boppin' tunes. If I turn off the music I get anxious, a loss of the distraction that kept me at peace from loud thought and louder sounds in my environment. Whereas if I keep the music at bay from the moment I wake up that doesn't happen, no music, no stress... Well less stress, I'm a game dev of course I'm stressed about increasingly first world problems.
Additionally I don't mind losing out on the opportunity to listen to Yung Whoeverthefuck telling me about how many drugs he takes or how many women he has slept with. It's frankly unimportant and negatively effects how I view others. Hearing Tay-K rap about how he's proud of a murder he actually did probably isn't getting me any kinder.
I do still occasionally listen to music, and always feel worse after for above mentioned reasons, but I manage to miss out on this cacophony of noise most of my days. I won't be closing down the blog but I (probably) won't talk much more about music (Sorry to disappoint my 0 NeoCities followers.) Welcome to Alexandra's Anti Music Music Blog.